So I did the math. A 30 year fixed and a 50 year fixed have a monthly payment difference of $1.

What the absolute fuck.

Yay! I love to see it. I briefly looked into it this summer but then I got distracted and lost track

I think he’s kidding.

I hope.

God fuck this timeline, I can’t tell either now.

That’s actually a great point that I did overlook.

They would.

They seriously would. Authoritarianism is a pathology. Change my mind.

You know, this really has me pondering my projects architecture. We have tiers of services.

At the top, we have the UI. Then we have a “consumer” an “orchestra” and a “data” tier.

Data is the tier that exclusively talks to databases. Orchestra talks to the multiple data services. A good chunk of business logic is here. Consumer uses the orchestra and handles UI requests.

All it essentially does is split the monolith into 3 services at minimum. And since it’s on the cloud, there’s a start up cost where we need to spin up 3 machines instead of whatever you can do with microservices. What benefit do I get?

Hmm. Uhoh.

I’m out on FMLA. Am I even going to have a job when I get back?

On a serious note, having been that guy, this is the worst experience ever.

15 years of slowly being convinced being who I was, was wrong. 15 years of being told she was normal, what I wanted wasn’t. 15 years of isolation. 15 years brainwashing. 15 years of ever building self doubt.

Then she cheated on me.

Somehow I haven’t been in grippy socks yet. Pretty fucking close though with the outpatient stuff I do. Been on one date with someone else.

Edit: A greentext post of all places to get this wonderful support. 🥲