Sounds to me like you weren’t dumb, you were just doing a bunch of Shit trying to heal from a shitty hand dealt by life. Healing requires dumb shit I believe. Were you not doing your best by the people around you? That’s what I would call dumb shit instead, if so, yeah.
But your comment shows a really stand-up side of you, so damn, congrats on becoming this person after all.
If you’re a quasi-rich sociopathic pedophile, it pays dividends to get richer, to be able to avoid consequences.
That’s a general rule in capitalism and maybe society in general. If there’s a way to receive less consequences for shitty acts, those that want to do shitty acts will flock to that path.
The shitty acts then becomes a pseudo-reward for power, and community forms around that.
I get the sense that the post is ironic, and op has the same opinion as you. But hey, nothing is too explicit on the internet, it’s probably better to state it all clearly.