What country are you in? If you’re in the US, I used some service called ZocDoc to find mine. I don’t think I even had to make an account to log in or to view stuff, just when you were actually gonna make the appointment. I called out of work one day because I was feeling really shit and decided to Google a psych provider.

Yeah it’s fucking daunting like you said. But with that website you can literally fill in the day you want to be seen and it will pop up with plenty of dates and times with a shitton of different providers. I just picked whatever was available same day and someone was actually able to see me then. I was surprised at how quick it was when it had never been that quick or simple before.

Now, this person ended up as a psych NP, not a physician. I think you’re not going to find a physician available on these websites. Idk if my NP is shit or not, but at least she has been seeing me and she was able to refer me to a therapist.

Idk if this wouldn’t work with your insurance tho. I think the website maybe tells you the insurances that the providers accept. My insurance is kind of shit so it didn’t entirely matter who I picked.

Anyway, best of luck, man, you got this.