Been there. Reached out to a psychiatrist and they said they won’t help me because of my nationality (I ran from Russia). It’s been 3 years and I still haven’t had the second attempt.

Life is fine if you just keep living it day by day even if it’s getting harder and harder

What country are you in? If you’re in the US, I used some service called ZocDoc to find mine. I don’t think I even had to make an account to log in or to view stuff, just when you were actually gonna make the appointment. I called out of work one day because I was feeling really shit and decided to Google a psych provider.

Yeah it’s fucking daunting like you said. But with that website you can literally fill in the day you want to be seen and it will pop up with plenty of dates and times with a shitton of different providers. I just picked whatever was available same day and someone was actually able to see me then. I was surprised at how quick it was when it had never been that quick or simple before.

Now, this person ended up as a psych NP, not a physician. I think you’re not going to find a physician available on these websites. Idk if my NP is shit or not, but at least she has been seeing me and she was able to refer me to a therapist.

Idk if this wouldn’t work with your insurance tho. I think the website maybe tells you the insurances that the providers accept. My insurance is kind of shit so it didn’t entirely matter who I picked.

Anyway, best of luck, man, you got this.

Progress on fixing depression: No Progress.

That is absolutely not true. You took a big step today and while you didn’t achieve what you had hoped to achieve it doesn’t mean you achieved nothing. You proved to yourself that you are capable of reaching out for help. Tomorrow you can do it again. One call a day until you find someone who can help you. Try not to miss a day but if you do its OK. No one is perfect. Just try to make a call the next day.

I get that making phone calls sucks. Are there email addresses for potential therapists you can reach out to? Maybe sending emails until you find one that says yes will be easier? You can write what you want to say once and just copy and paste it the rest of the time.

That’s what it feels like sometimes. You finally get the motivation to do something. Then that something goes wrong or doesn’t work out. It’s wonderful. 🙂

Finding a mental health provider is such a slog. First you have to identify a practice that takes your insurance (assuming you have any), then you have to see if they’re taking new patients. In my experience, the Venn diagram of those two items barely overlaps. But I’m not trying to get you further down, good luck with your search.

Good for you, procrastination is tough to overcome. Keep trying it can be worth it. …1 call, are you in jail?

You’re still here, and you’re talking about it.

Actual progress on fixing depression: 50%

The universe is indifferent but it’s hard to see that. Your brain focuses on the times it was against you.

People shit on retail therapy. But if I order something online it’ll be here tomorrow.

If I plan to do something, it’ll require three trips to Home Depot, the bank (which will be closed), the post office, a notary, and it’ll only be 80% done when I give up.

That sucks, but I can assure you the universe is not against or for anyone. Life is a struggle, unfair and hard. Still, it’s worth it.

Anyhow I can recommend looking for the causes of depression. It’s something likely you can only answer anyway as it’s not a cause but often a result of something. Eg it took me around 40 years where mine came from.

You can do it. Day by day.